I am meeting my lover for a weekend or something more at a hotel and he is happy to see me, with plans for how we will spend our time together.  But a part of my visit includes my doing some things I’d already had planned, sort of a business/pleasure trip.  He is disappointed, even frustrated with me, questioning my commitment to our relationship.  I am lying between his legs, my hands resting on my thighs, my head somewhat below his, pillowed on his shoulder/chest.  He is holding me in his arms, his legs wrapped around me as he tells me about his doubts, his expectations, and I assure him, smiling, caressing, kissing.  Yet, inside I am thinking that this is not what I want, this relationship.  He is young and his needs are in conflict with my own.  His wants are rooted in pleasure while mine are focused on my duties and responsibilities.  My assurances are enough for him and we kiss but I am not able to reassure myself.